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Remembering April 18, 2013

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The Lord is already lifting my funk I was in about my birthday. After a good week of processing why I was in my funk, I came out on the other side seeing what contributed and that has helped so much. Good friends and I talked- good advice was shared with me and stories of similar feelings were shared. How sweet of the Lord to bring those people to me by facebook messages, phone calls or email.

For several weeks I have been pondering the word “Remember” and its connection to Gratitude. Many times in Scripture, both Old and New Testaments, we see the Lord tell his people to remember what He has done for them. He calls them to recall His goodness in setting them free- He reminds them of how He provided for them or how He kept His word to them. He is often speaking to a people who have strayed from Him or who are grumbling or complaining- sometimes He is speaking to those who must face a daunting task and who must trust Him for what lies ahead. Either way, the remedy to their problem is remembering past faithfulness and trusting Him for what lies ahead.

Psalm 143:5 I remember the days of old; I meditate on all that you have done; I ponder the work of your hands.

Psalm 77:11 I will remember the deeds of the Lord; yes, I will remember your wonders of old.

Job 36:24 Remember to extol his work, of which men have sung.

Nehemiah 4:14 And I looked and arose and said to the nobles and to the officials and to the rest of the people, “Do not be afraid of them. Remember the Lord, who is great and awesome, and fight for your brothers, your sons, your daughters, your wives, and your homes.”

1 Chronicles 16:12 Remember the wondrous works that he has done, his miracles and the judgments he uttered

Joshua 1:13 Remember the word that Moses the servant of the Lord commanded you, saying, ‘The Lord your God is providing you a place of rest and will give you this land.’

Deuteronomy 15:15You shall remember that you were a slave in the land of Egypt, and the Lord your God redeemed you; therefore I command you this today.

Deuteronomy 8:2 And you shall remember the whole way that the Lord your God has led you these forty years in the wilderness, that he might humble you, testing you to know what was in your heart, whether you would keep his commandments or not.

Exodus 13:3 [ The Feast of Unleavened Bread ] Then Moses said to the people, “Remember this day in which you came out from Egypt, out of the house of slavery, for by a strong hand the Lord brought you out from this place.

I am going to remember 40 faithful moments that the Lord has done- 40 faithful provisions or freedoms that He provided.  We have to remember because we forget so easily. We have to recall what is true so that we don’t paint false pictures of our lives- Remembering is tied to Gratitude and it ministers to our hearts. 40 moments of grace.

 

i am going to get fired April 16, 2013

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by my children- for making unreliable costumes for their musicals.

Cord was the rooster in his school musical E-I-E-I-Oops. The set was precious! Moms and dads made a barn scene and fence posts with corn growing up the poles. It was a perfect setting. Some of the kids were farmers, some were cows, or chicks or mice. Cord was a rooster. I immediately wished I knew how to sew (how many times has that thought gone through my mind? Why didn’t I take Home Ec!)

Cord has not always loved being in plays- Last year he was Joseph in his school’s Christmas play and you may remember he growled and snarled at me from the stage, saying,”Quit taking my picture.”

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So planning for this play I got online and ordered a mask- I was thinking that he might feel more confident if he was hidden behind the mask- and it ended up being the only part of the costume that didn’t fall apart!

I bought a white thermal long sleeve tshirt and found his white baseball pants. I bought red flannel squares for his legs and tucked them up in the baseball pants. I bought three white boas and wrapped them all over his top and tucked them in (that was the fatal mistake 🙂 )

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I dropped him off at class and took a few photos with his buddies.

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I left him with the instructions to be very careful because those boas could unwrap if he were too crazy. I head to the gym, anxious that he will be a naked little chicken on stage.

As his class walks in to go up on stage, I see that he is holding all the boas. I run over to the corner, rewrap and tuck, and send him on his way, now knowing there will be a naked chicken on stage at some point.

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I sit through the show, begging the boas to stay put, and he makes it through his speaking part at the microphone fully dressed 🙂 But during the second half of the show, I see his boas slowly begin to unwrap. Thankfully he does not have to go anywhere and they slowly unravel on to the bleacher that he is standing on.

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This greets me after the show…an armful of rooster costume.  Must.Learn.To.Sew. (or at least use safety pins!!)

 

 

 

40 April 8, 2013

Isn’t it funny that you can have extremely emotional highs and lows in the same day?

This morning was a low- let me just call it like it is; I am not doing well with my upcoming birthday. There, I said it.  Now the important thing for me to wrestle with is why. Why do I feel frustrated by the big 4-0? I seem to be facing this giant of a birthday in the middle of a time when I am getting used to a lot of changes in our life (moving, church changes, relationship changes) as well as facing some of my own internal struggles about who I am, what I like to do , what I am here for, how I can change some things I don’t like about myself, how I can invest my days.

It is almost like a perfect storm really.

storms make me think of the sea and of the disciples- storms make me think of Jonah being tossed in to the sea- and of Jesus walking on the water and His calming of the sea- storms make me think of houses that are built on strong foundations so they can withstand the tempest. And of Noah being tossed about in the ark. lessons from a storm always beg you to look at Jesus.

We find ourselves in positions that we cannot control, wondering if God knows we are here and if He is going to do something miraculous? Can He see my need and is He good enough to do something about it?

Well of course the answer is yes. Of course the answer is yes.

He sees, he hears, he knows, he is good and he will act. The Bible tells me all I need to know about what He will do and about who He is.

I am wondering what I  will do and who I am. I am thankful for the Holy Spirit that works to open my eyes to see how firm a foundation I have in the Lord. The Work of the Holy Spirit, which helps me answer some of these questions and works to root out of me the sin that so easily entangles me and that I give too much sway to. The Lord doesn’t leave me alone to look at how faithful He is and make me be faithful by my own hard effort- no, He gives me a helper. the Holy Sprit- the Lord Himself, who will lead me to where I need to be and to what I need to do. who will help me “be” right now and not be so eager to “do”. who will help me be patient in areas and who will help me attack the areas that ensnare me. who will help me rehearse the truths that I know.

Today also had some highs- a much needed heart to heart with my oldest friend- a plan for my birthday that I can look forward to- a beautiful day filled with sunshine and warm weather, a very long walk, a friend who teaches my children and takes up my slack when I forget things, a rich time in writing for an upcoming retreat, a family dinner.

Here’s to facing 40…may the struggle lead to something beautiful.

 

Cord-isms April 4, 2013

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Two of my favorite things that Cord says right now.

Oh My Word.

Gee.

Imagine those being said with LOTS of syllables in response to everything. Whether he is watching a TV show like Swamp People or Duck Dynasty or he is telling you about his day at school, he inserts these phrases and I think how sweet it is that he sounds like an extremely southern “Leave it to Beaver” right now.

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